Showing posts with label Life's like that.... Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life's like that.... Show all posts

Saturday, April 21

Assignments.......What students wish never existed.....

Being a student again was great. This time around I was happy to be in school. Learned a bunch of stuff that I KNOW I can use and will be used in the future. However, as every cloud has a silver lining, sometimes behind a cloud there's also the promise of thunder and storm. Kalau student, thunder tu exams dan storm tu assignments. :D

Banyaknye assignment yang menuntut perhatian. Mana nak buat dulu? Baca, baca, baca.....pening kepala. Hahah.

Oklah, dah buang 5 minit menulis kat blog ni. Better get back to my assignment now. Toodeloo. :D

Tuesday, July 12

How Time Flies

How fleeting is our interest. like i predicted, the interest in writing in this blog faded. In fact, most of the things I was interested in back then I no longer do. Playing badminton? No more, since i hurt my ankle.

What's new? Facebook craze. Meeting of old and dear friends that i thought was lost forever. Having reunions. Making new memories. Unemployment again. was a teacher for nearly two year. That ended. But hopefully will get back into education soon.

Why the sudden posting after all these years? Sometimes i still need to say something and put my thoughts in writing. so once in a while, i guess i will be back here, typing away the words in my head.

Wednesday, September 24

Life Throws You Curve Balls

I have always thought that life is like being on a journey. And on this journey we will find nice roads, wide trails, narrow trails, steep trails, hills, etc etc. We get surprise sometimes by our decision on what road to take next. Do we turn right? Do we turn left? Should we leave the nice road and pick that narrow dark trail? Will it be safe? Where will it lead?

There are many instances in my life that I had to choose what road to take. Sometimes I had more info and others I just followed my gut feeling. Though in all those instances, I truly believe now, that it was the best for me at the moment. It was right and it had it's own pros and cons. I truly believe that there is a hidden silver lining in all of them. Even the ones that at face value seems so wrong.

One of the big ones was when my parents divorced. I was barely 12. I had to choose who I should live with and that decision will include my young sister who simply wants to follow me wherever I go. So I chose my father. We moved to my paternal grandfather's house. Lost contact with my mother and elder sister who chose to stay with her. Life changes in that split second that I made my decision for both my young sister and me. And yet, as I lose precious time with my mother and sister, I gained the value of family as my father's siblings all stay near each other and are very close. My cousins and I grew up together. We learn to appreciate family and how to support each other.

The next big decision was when I applied for boarding school because all my friends are applying. I did not really want to go but I figured my friends will get into the same boarding school and we could continue our friendship. At the time, those friends were my most precious possession. I did not want to part with them. When the offer letter came, most of my friends got into the same school and I was the only one that was offered the boarding school in Penang. I was teribbly disappointed, to say the least. My friends persuaded me to go. They said it will be good for us. I only thought of the fact that I will be a stranger in a strange land in a school that no one I know goes to. I wanted out. However, I made a decision to at least gave it a try. Thinking that I could leave if I hated it. But those years was one of the best in my life. I learned to grow up. Be a bit independent. Learned to make new friends. Made mistakes. Had a crush. Superb experience that I would not exchange for anything. Even though I left my young sister behind and was even more distant from both my father and mother.

The next one of course involves university. I chose to apply to UTM. I had made up my mind that I wanted to go there. I just haven't decided what course to take. All I knew was that I wanted to get as far away as possible from science and maths subjects. So I filled the form for any course that I could apply to that does not have anything to do with science. But there was one more place to fill. My mother ask me to pick an engineering course. I was against it but i figured that it would be my last pick and thus have a low chance of being successful and in the mean time it will make my mother happy. Plus, I wanted to please her because we are not that close. Guess what? Oh yeah, that was the course that I was offered and i did not get any other offer from any other university. I was mad but I had no choice. So with rebel in my heart, I went. Intending to fail so that I could pick another course. Unfortunately, I got a scholarship that would make the burden on my father that much lighter and thus I was shackled into finishing the course. A hard as the course was, I managed to get through it. Thanks largely to my friends, whom I love dearly, I was able to make it. And again, those were the best times of my life. Had my first car (though it is an old beat up car, I loved it to bits), my first accident, my first time going out for a bite after midnight, my first all night cramming, my first best friend (whom I love so much I practically adopted her family). Many many firsts. Had a blast I tell ya. A BLAST!!!!! So despite the unwanted course, I had so much fun. Wouldn't change that for anything either.

Then decisions about work. Sometimes the lack of it. Had my dark moments of being useless and jobless. I wanted to work in Ipoh, close to my family after years of being away. But we can plan people say, but only ALLAH will decide. Work have taken me to Shah Alam, Petaling Jaya (where I stayed with my stepmother's relative. They were very very nice to me and I am grateful forever) and finally back to Ipoh. I was happy here. Things was going ok. True my salary is low and I do menial work but I was happy. Living a stressless (is that even a word? hahahaha) life. But as life has it, it is time again for me to make a decision. Either to stay on this road that is nice and looks so easy or go off road and find another trail full of adventure.

It all started when my raya leave was denied. He only approved the two days that is considered as public holidays and one more day extra. That's it. Even though I have no urgent matter to do during this raya period. I thought that it was very inconsiderate of my boss to not think about his employees and how they would want to celebrate this with their family that usually can only get together once a year. I was livid. More so when I heard that some got their leave approved. I saw red then. I was talking to the other employees who was angry as well and we decided to not come to work no matter what. Knowing that this could very well mean getting fired. Funny though, this made me reevaluate my current situation. I started to ask around about job openings. I applied for two positions in one day where before I was mainly playing the waiting game with my application for a government post. Where before I was contend with this low paying job, I want more now. And thus, I had a discussion with my family. After comtemplating everything, I had finally made a decision. I will tender my resignation after raya. I will take that plunge into the deep dark sea and take my chances for a better future. Maybe this is just what I needed to trigger a change. It might be a mistake but I truly believe there will be a silver lining even if it turns out to be a mistake initially. I believe that. I just hope it willl turn out great right from the start. With a silent prayer in my heart, here I go.......:D

Friday, August 29

Ramadhan is coming.......

Ramadhan is coming and all is well. :)

Some update. The soundless computer have sound again. After much tinkering and trial and error, finally a solution was found and sound is again there to add to the the whole cyber experience. Happy as I am that there is sound again, alas I haven't used it much lately and I don't seem to mind that much anymore. Maybe after not having sound for so long had taken it's toll. Hahaha.

The sprained ankle? Yeah, it is getting better by the day. I do a lot of stretching and rubbing of heat rub. I am adamant that I will be back on the court playing badminton right after raya. I miss my badminton so much. Just looking at the badminton bag makes me want to just say, to hell with it, I want to play NOW! Thanks goodness for common sense and thank goodness that I have some of that. Hehehe. So patience is the key and hopefully that will lead to a lot more years of badminton. :)

Tomorrow, my office will be having a kenduri to celebrate the coming of Ramadhan. We are planing to cook bubur lambuk. Should be good. :) I guess Merdeka will just have to take a back seat this year. Nonetheless, happy birthday Malaysia!

The internet connection is still so bad. TM should really buck up and keep their end of the bargain. I think we are literally paying for bad quality service. After so many complaints and so many visit from their technician, the situation does not seem to get any better. More frustrating when everytime we call they seem to say that they have no record of any complaint being made. WHY is that? We are in the age where the customer is not always right. In fact, the customer should just shut up and put up with it.

Oh, and last but not least, a friend from university was chatting with me the other day and he was worried that I am still single. Well, thank you very much for stating the obvious. Haahaha. Anyway, happy as I am with the way I am now, I guess there's no harm in putting myself out there a bit and who knows, I might just land a good catch. So I am chatting on the cyberworld again. The last time was when I was in university. I feel like I am too old for this. Hehehe. But, unless you play the game, you will not have even a sliver of chance of winning right? Play the game and you have a 50-50 chance. :P On to my next adventure......kuah kuah kuah...

This is leen live fingers on the keyboard saying, live and let live. Carpe diem. You get lemon, try to make lemonade. Nothing ventured nothing gained. Well, you get the gist. Hehehehe.

Thursday, July 31

Technology can be frustrating!!!!!!

This is me live, fingers on the keyboard. Haven't been able to blog lately, something to do with putting food on the table. Hahahaha. Anyways, as the title proclaimed, technology can be frustrating. While I love the fact that computers and internet are so awesome, they can also be a source of hair pulling nightmares. The internet has been slow and inconsistent (as I have been telling people like a million time already and I really should stop shouldn't I?) and now there's a new problem.

A few months back, my computer was upgraded to 1GB RAM. Unfortunately, even as i love the new speedier computer, i am now rendered soundless. Hahaha. it that even a word. Soundless. Yep, the komputer have no sound. Checking the sound option in control panel, i was told there was no audio device. Huh? What the......

So until today, I am soundless. Anybody out there who can help me get out of this soundless cacoon?

Monday, July 14

OUCH!!!

Yeah, that was the first word coming out of my mouth when I sprained my ankle while playing badminton last Wednesday. It was a bad bad day. Started with work that needed to be done by the end of the working hour, a trip to the post office to get the rebate that made me late coming back to the office (and the boss throwing a disapproving glance my way as I made my way to my desk); which in turn resulted in me not having enough time to properly warm up for the badminton session. I decided (foolishly, now with benefit of hindsight) to just go for my badminton session without a warm up session cause I was just too eager to play after missing a couple of sessions due to work commitment. What a big big mistake. All was well for the first half an hour, but when I decided on a last game after sitting down for too long, as written in fate I was down like a "nangka busuk" after I awkwardly landed on my right foot with a bad angle of the ankle.
As I was on sitting on the court, the pain just overwhelmed me and I think the adrenalin rush gave me a high. Everything looks blurry, the pain was throbbing, I could not breath properly, felt like the blood is rushing everywhere and yet nowhere. The people who played with me was asking if I was alright and told me to take off my shoes and told me to apply some heating oitment. One kakak was rubbing the oitment and massaging my feet and ankle, boy that was brutal, my instinct was to kick her away! But I just bit my lips and endured. As they moved me to the bench, I was still high. The pain was still there but it felt more like a gentle throbbing. They asked me if I was able to drive my car home. After like 10 minutes, I kinda felt the pain is subsiding (but later I would find out I was tricked by my body to think that) and thus I told them that I felt ok and that I am confident I would be able to drive the car home. At that time, I was still able to put some weight and pressure on the foot.
Arrived home to hear my mak being concerned and nagging me for being careless. I put ice on the swollen area. Rested for a while and took a shower. Rub some more heat rub and compressed the ankle with bandage. Elevated my foot while I slept. RICE. Woke up the next morning, put my feet on the floor to go take my shower and instant shooting pain up to my knee and I was screaming through gritted teeth. I had to shuffle, painfully and put all my weight on my left leg (which caused the left leg to cramp up) and head to the shower knowing that I have to shower because I have to go see the doctor without delay. It took me like nearly an hour in the shower manouvering and using the toilet seat as resting stool when my left leg cannot take the weight anymore. Called to office to tell my sob story and asking my mak to take me to the government clinic nearby.
My mak, who has not driven in like 7 years ( I am her driver nowadays), had to reacquint with her driving skills and slowly we made our way to the clinic. Saw the doctor, was told to get an X ray (which was only available at 2 pm) and to go back and see him after the X ray. We decided to go home first and go to the clinic again at 2pm as it was only 9.30 at that time. But I asked my mak to detour to my office so that I could make sure that any pending jobs will be taken over by someone. And before we head home, I asked my mak to go to the nearest pharmacy to get me a cane. Walking is slow and painful without some sort of support.
Came back at 2pm for the X ray. The X ray itself was pretty agonizing since I have to make sure my foot does not move as the X ray was taken. Believe me, when you have a swollen ankle, putting them at an angle and keeping them still is torture. Went to see the doc and he said the bones are ok, so it is only the tendons that is making me feel pain like hell. Got three days MC. Rest most of the time during that period. Felt better and more confident of putting pressure on my foot today and so here I am back at work. The driving was ok but the task of going up the flight of stairs was irritatingly slow. Thank goodness I have the cane, my superb mak and caring colleagues. :)

Tuesday, July 8

BBQ in BG

This is Leen live online. Hahahaha. Anyways, last saturday we had a kenduri to mark the completion of the old kampung house's renovation. All family member, well almost all, were there. I was told to bring bananas. :D

And of course, we had plans for the evening. The elders decided on a BBQ. A relative prepared curry noodles. We had hotdogs, burgers and chicken wings. Unfortunately, no pictures because I was in charge to BBQing the food and with the fan in one hand and the thongs on the other, there was virtually no way to take pictures unless of course like an orang utan I can use my legs and feet to handle the camera. Hahahaha. :P

The food was good but more than that, it was the feeling of family and the get togetherness of the BBQ. I have to say there are two style of eating that is very conducive for family gatherings, one is BBQ and the other is Steam boat. Yum yum. We were talking and laughing and remembering old stuff like whether my grandfather died before my aunt or the other way around. And I found and old photo of us all (those who were already born that is because one of my cousin and my younger sister is not in the pic) taken most probably during my grandfather's anniversary or birthday. We took the picture in front of the house and it sure brings back memories. The kids in the pictures are all grown up and some are married and had kids on their own. :) Time passes us by so fast and yet at times of gatherings like these, it feels like we are still stuck in that moment. A part of an entity. A part of a family. With people who knows us so well. Our weaknesses and strengths. And we know them well. And because we are family, we see pass the faults and embrace the person for who she/he is. Family rocks !!! (plus the gossip session are better than the ones we watch on tv of celebrities we know nothing about, hehehhehe :D) Glad to be a part of an amazing family both on my father's side and my mother's side. :)

Friday, June 13

Something Light

10 June 2008 – Ok, enough heavy stuff. Those heavy issues can make me feel down. All we can do is try to make our lives better and try to be a better person and try to treat other people with respect. And humor works so well in making my live a little better. This is why I love humorous writing, articles, columns, etc. When I was subscribing Reader’s Disgest, I always read the humour sections first. The laughter Is The Best Medines, Life’s Like That, Humor In Uniforms and things like that at the end of each article.

I read The Star paper and some of the columnists that I love to read are Mary Schneider, Kevin Cowherd, A. Asohan (excellent article on love story in non rom com movies J), sujesh pavithran, dzof azmi, Brenda Benedict, Alexandra Wong…and others. Any article that has humor in it, I’m in. I am such a sucker for anything that can induce laughter. Sitcoms, rom coms, dot coms hahahahahahahaha, no, just kidding. I would like to think I laugh enough. I frown too much sometimes so a laugh sure exercises the face muscles. Though I heard that we use more muscle to frown than to smile. Funny how that is, isn’t it?

Anyway, I love comics. I read them first when I read the paper followed by the sports section of course J. In The Star paper, I like Calvin and Hobbes, Zits, Hagar the Horrible, and though I am not really a fan of Garfield, I do read it anyway. The others too, except maybe Brenda Starr, and Spiderman (oh no, the wrath of spiderman fans) the former because I don’t get it and the latter because it just does not compare to the real comic books version. And I used to love reading Preteena that can be found in the Star Two section every Wednesday but no more. I tried to find it online but no luck. But I do read other comics online. Like Rose Is Rose, Agnes, Andy Cap, Baby Blues, Dinette Set, Jerry King Cartoons, Mother Goose And Grimm, Non Sequitur, Speed Bump, Red And Rover, Doonesbury, etc.

Laughter is the best medicine. A laughter a day keeps the doctor at bay. Hahahaha.
10 June 2008- I think writing is therapeutic.:) I sure feel good writing about anything and everything. Putting into words your thoughts. At this very moment I am listening to this song I’m Yours by Jason Mraz and I kinda like it. There’s a feeling of a Hawaiian guy on a ukulele singing on the beach as the sun sets.



I like Jason Mraz from the start. He is such a unique person. Like Mika of Grace Kelly. Hehehehe. And James Morrison though he is a bid melancholy. Marie Digby, Colbie Caillat, Sarah Bareilles(that song Love Song) and Gavin Degraw. Oh, and that guy who starred in One Tree Hill. He’s singer who hits on Nathan’s wife Haley. Tyler Hilton is the real name. His voice is distinctive. Beck, Jamiroquai (though I only like this one song and I can’t even remember the title but it is catchy), and others. But I kinda realize that I am not really a fan of singers or band but more a fan of songs. Some singers, I don’t even recognize them but I might love one of their songs. This is like how I show my support in sports. I like Kimi Raikkonen, so whatever team he ends up in, I will still support him. Except for maybe Arsenal whom I support no matter who the coach or the players. I digress. But music that is good to listen to will still be good no matter who the singer is. :)

Arrrrghhhhh............

9 June 2008 - Due to the bad, bad, bad (yeah, I need to write it three times to emphasise on the badness, hahahaha) internet connection, I have been unable to write about the stuff that intrigued me the last few days. For one, there was the thing about how eggs can stand on the fifth day of the fifth lunar year. I think. There was even a picture of it in The Star. Then there was the thing about the new TV show Pushing Daisies. Then there was something about how walking barefoot is the best way for your feet and guess where I learned about that? The badminton forum, can you believe it? Go figure. You learn new stuff everyday and at the weirdest places.

I know there was other stuff that I wanted to mention in my blog but not putting pen on paper (figuratively speaking of course :D) when the thing hit me made it hard to remember it later, much less comment about it. While I was daydreaming and mulling about the whole thing, I suddenly realize there’s a simple solution to this problem, which of course take days to figure out as many simple solutions do, and that is to write whatever takes my attention immediately in WORD before later copying and pasting it on my blog whenever the connection permits. J. And so, for postings that are not “live” there will be a date in the beginning of the jottings. Hahahaha. Flurry, there will be a flurry of postings whenever I can get online. Beware! :P

Tuesday, June 3

Little White Lies

I was listening to Mix fm this morning and the topic was, have you lied to your loved ones the real price of the stuff you bought. I always find some of the topics discussed on radio to be very interesting and if not for the fact that calling the station means redialling a million times and still can't get through, I would have called the station up and have my say. I digress..



Anyway, the answer to the question above is a big big YES!! For every person, there are things that they would think twice before buying and then there are stuff that they just have to get no matter what. This usually correlates with their interests. Boys in general loves sport stuff anf gadgets. Girls love clothes and shoes. Ok, girls loves a lot of stuff. Hahahaha. We would be buying everything if we can get a rich man to love us and make enough money for us to spend every minute of the day.



Me, my current interest in badminton stuff, in particular, badminton shoes. I have set aside RM50 for a few months just to buy a new racket. And I try not to let my mak sees the new racket. Or if I can't hide it, I lie about the price. Haha. If she knows how much I have spent on badminton stuff, she would bite my head off. According to her I should spend more money on clothes. And I should buy a new car so that I can take her to KL to visit her grandchildren safely and in comfort (my current car is a 16 years old charade aura with hard brakes and tink tink sounds everywhere) though that would surely take like years and years of setting aside RM50...hahahahaha :P So, anyway, my current object of desire is a new badminton shoes. Asics Gel Tactic or Mizuno badminton shoes though Mizunos are hard to find. I have not found Asics in Ipoh yet but people are telling me that I could find them in Yik Foong so maybe I will go take a look around one of these days. Hopefully when I have the money because I just hate seeing something I like and having to wait to get it in my hands.


This is the Women's version. I kinda like the color.



This one is for men but I love the colour scheme.

This one is just too tacky. hahahaha.

Saturday, May 31

My live without stable internet access........

sucks. The internet connection have been disconnecting so much that any attempt at any postings or even email checking are proven futile. At one point, I was offline for nearly two days. Reports to the provider company makes my head itch like crazy for their nonchalant ignorance of my predicament. They couldn't care less. Ha ha, in my face. Well at least that is how I perceive their fervent effort not to do anything constructive in solving my problem. And blogging became a challenge. Thoughts that are fresh and needed to be written immediately get lost in day to day mundane going ons.....

Tuesday, May 20

I try and try and try......

but I can't figure out how to put background music on my blog. But I think it might be a blessing in disguise because logic tells me that if I succeed, the page will be slower to pop up. Plus there is the issue of copyright and even though I am not planning on making any profit out of anything used here in this blog, I better respect the rules. So maybe I should just forget about it.

The Thomas Cup and Uber Cup

Our Uber Cuppers did well. We reached quarter finals. I was satisfied with their efforts. :) Maybe when we can find more talented new players, we can mount a serious challenge. China is so lucky in a sense that they have a huge pool of talent to pick from.

Thomas Cup was so near yet so far. Yes, I was disappointed but I think most of our players did their best and if Hafiz were able to move up a gear and not look like there's no more hope on court and be more aggresive, we might have reached the finals. Koo Kien Keat/ Tan Boon Heong looked like thay have lost the magic. They did try though and I applaud that. But maybe they can't play together anymore. Or shouldn't play together anymore if they can't get over their differences on court and play together and support each other. I did not put much hope on Wong Choon Hann but I was still hoping against hope that he could beat Bao Chun Lai and set the standard for the next doubles to emulate. Thankfully the next doubles did not need any as they won their game. But by that time I was weary of the fact that we have to bank on hafiz to clinch a place in the finals. Truthfully, I was already thinking that we could try again next time even before hafiz took to the court. And sadly that thought was proved right by a meek hafiz that did not show any fight and made so many mistakes. If it was the pressure, he was there before and should have been prepared. But alas, another bad showing was all he was capable of. I was sad that so much talent came to nought.

Well...next time maybe we'll take the trophy home. It will be on our owm homeground and I am already planning to be there. :)

We make plans, but.............

things don't always go according to our plans. Well I wanted to have odd posts per day and yet even this simple plan was unsuccessful. Hahaha. Oh, well...live and let live. :D

Thursday, May 15

Learning is a lifelong process.

Today, I learned how to add Youtube videos on my blog. Thanks to Jesse. And yesterday i finally figured out how to put a link to a word or phrase. Please refer to the flag below. However I have not figured out how to link a word to a certain post. Like when you want people to refer to previous posts that are connected to your current one. :D There are still other things I have yet to learn. Like how to make my blog have background music. Though I suspect that will slow the page down. How to make a watermark on my pictures that I post here. How to add animation. How to add games that I love here. Though I can always link them here. Hahahaha.

Lifelong process indeed. And this is just about blogging. There are so many other things I would love to learn more of. But that's another topic altogether. :P

Friday, May 9

Moving to a new place.....

brings along with it a new set of problems. Always. Be it a new house, a new office, a new place (boarding school and such), all will present new sets of pros and cons. Take for example my new office. Pros : parking is free and you can park very near to the building since there's a substantial space (yard some might say) around the new building, there's so much more space, it has a nostalgic feeling since the building is like an old wooden bungalow, it is quiet, there's good cheap food near the new office, it is nearer to my home and thus reduce petrol usage and some other plus points. Cons : the new network setup are so unstable and I get disconnected every few minutes and connected again every few minutes. Editing anything online means copying and pasting on word doc before submitting in case I get disconnected and have to write everything all over again and believe me I have done it quite a few times these last few weeks. The stairs are not looking so sturdy. The ascent and descent on the narrow steps leads to painful knees (and the main reason why I am currently looking for good sandal with good cushioning). When it is cold (like when it is raining outside) it can get real cold, and when it is hot, boy i tell ya, it can get real hot.

So yeah, pros and cons. And the irony is, when I am in the passionate mood to blog away, the line disconnected and my thoughts "terbantut" (retarded). Aiya.